Quoting ScarlettAngel:

Many of these things are in my profile, but I'll share here...I'm 39, married w/ 2 kids at home. And newly Bi.

For the past few years I've felt myself drawn closer to women and just chalked it up to being more self-confident about myself, more self-aware. I got hit on in my gym lockerroom and thought, ok, cool, I'm hetero, but still flattered, just as if a guy had hit on me.

A friend told me she was bi and since we've been friends forever, it really took me by surprise. How could I have not known? And...was she ever attracted to me? Since we're practically sisters, the answer was no. But as we talked there was this feeling inside that I needed to listen to.

I started looking at bicurious sites and thinking that maybe this was me...but I was 38 at the time....married, kids....how could I just be figuring this out NOW? Was it my strict, conservative Christian upbringing? Or the very expression of any sexuality being heavily repressed? I think I had more issues about my body going on that would have distracted me from something I was raised to believe was sinful.

So I'm stepping back a bit--to when I realized my way of thinking--not my sexual identity--was at play. When I had my daughter I knew I could no longer think of GLBT as a sin. I loved her so much and I could not believe in a parent who would hate their child over this. I felt like God was telling me it was wrong to judge people and I finally felt at peace with advocating for GLBT rights. Which was good, since 3 of my very close friends are gay/bi and I can't imagine them not being in my life.

So back to last year. We went to NOLA. Stayed on Bourbon Street. OH YEAH, great fun (that's where my profile pic is from after drinking a Hand Grenade). I never did get up the courage to visit a strip club, though I wanted to. But I did attend a little jazz club with the most mesmerizing singer I've ever laid eyes on. Looking at her, I knew in an instanst I could love a woman. I was so nervous after the show I could barely speak to her and deeply regret I didn't get some kind of contact number.

My husband? Oh yeah he saw the passion in my eyes. and he's ok with it for the most part. He is NOT one of those guys who gets off on 2 chicks making out. He does not want to be involved. But he does want me to be happy. He wants me to feel fulfilled in life.

Part of this comes from my chronic illnesses--chronic fatigue syndrome, fibromyalgia, chronic headaches and migraines. I have a lot of pain all the time. And he wants something that brings me pleasure--and if that is another woman, then so be it. We are very open talking about all this, because I love him. He and my kids are first in my life and I won't do anything to jeopardize that.

So what am I looking for? Without sounding trite, a friend with benefits. I do not take friendship lightly. I give my heart and soul to that person. I love to be with them, laugh, cry, talk about books, or just gab about the tv program we saw last night. I want someone that I can be intimate with, or just hang out with. Someone to share time and hobbies with and if the mood strikes for physical affection, that's just incredible.

I am a large girl--a fluffy woman, a BBW if you will. My many years of illness and medications have taken their toll but they do not have my spirit for life, or passion for love. My husband is a ringing endorsement for his passion for my body. I love to dress up in flirty sexy things, I'm a romantic girly girl, with a little bit of naughty on the side. My nose is pierced and so far I only have one tattoo, more to come.

So that's me. Let me hear about you? What about me interests you? Have questions? Ask away? I'm not shy ;)

Many of these things are in my profile, but I'll share here...I'm 39, married w/ 2 kids at home. And newly Bi.

For the past few years I've felt myself drawn closer to women and just chalked it up to being more self-confident about myself, more self-aware. I got hit on in my gym lockerroom and thought, ok, cool, I'm hetero, but still flattered, just as if a guy had hit on me.

A friend told me she was bi and since we've been friends forever, it really took me by surprise. How could I have not known? And...was she ever attracted to me? Since we're practically sisters, the answer was no. But as we talked there was this feeling inside that I needed to listen to.

I started looking at bicurious sites and thinking that maybe this was me...but I was 38 at the time....married, kids....how could I just be figuring this out NOW? Was it my strict, conservative Christian upbringing? Or the very expression of any sexuality being heavily repressed? I think I had more issues about my body going on that would have distracted me from something I was raised to believe was sinful.

So I'm stepping back a bit--to when I realized my way of thinking--not my sexual identity--was at play. When I had my daughter I knew I could no longer think of GLBT as a sin. I loved her so much and I could not believe in a parent who would hate their child over this. I felt like God was telling me it was wrong to judge people and I finally felt at peace with advocating for GLBT rights. Which was good, since 3 of my very close friends are gay/bi and I can't imagine them not being in my life.

So back to last year. We went to NOLA. Stayed on Bourbon Street. OH YEAH, great fun (that's where my profile pic is from after drinking a Hand Grenade). I never did get up the courage to visit a strip club, though I wanted to. But I did attend a little jazz club with the most mesmerizing singer I've ever laid eyes on. Looking at her, I knew in an instanst I could love a woman. I was so nervous after the show I could barely speak to her and deeply regret I didn't get some kind of contact number.

My husband? Oh yeah he saw the passion in my eyes. and he's ok with it for the most part. He is NOT one of those guys who gets off on 2 chicks making out. He does not want to be involved. But he does want me to be happy. He wants me to feel fulfilled in life.

Part of this comes from my chronic illnesses--chronic fatigue syndrome, fibromyalgia, chronic headaches and migraines. I have a lot of pain all the time. And he wants something that brings me pleasure--and if that is another woman, then so be it. We are very open talking about all this, because I love him. He and my kids are first in my life and I won't do anything to jeopardize that.

So what am I looking for? Without sounding trite, a friend with benefits. I do not take friendship lightly. I give my heart and soul to that person. I love to be with them, laugh, cry, talk about books, or just gab about the tv program we saw last night. I want someone that I can be intimate with, or just hang out with. Someone to share time and hobbies with and if the mood strikes for physical affection, that's just incredible.

I am a large girl--a fluffy woman, a BBW if you will. My many years of illness and medications have taken their toll but they do not have my spirit for life, or passion for love. My husband is a ringing endorsement for his passion for my body. I love to dress up in flirty sexy things, I'm a romantic girly girl, with a little bit of naughty on the side. My nose is pierced and so far I only have one tattoo, more to come.

So that's me. Let me hear about you? What about me interests you? Have questions? Ask away? I'm not shy ;)

ScarlettAngel Finding my wings, Ready to Fly